i could use some answers

I haven't posted anything in awhile. This is mostly due to the fact that I am not quite sure what to say. I am at a stalemate in my life; waiting to see if EJ finds work up here, waiting to see if Midtown Friends will make it. My life basically hinges on those two things at the moment, and I am not sure how that makes me feel. I am not happy, that much is for sure. I constantly feel like I am not living up to my potential, and I feel like I am stuck. This is depressing, I am going to stop putting my feelings into words now.